Pregnancy Week 12–There are no magical unicorns here.

Week: 12

Pounds Gained Lost: I lost 2.4 pounds this week, so now I’m down 5.4 pounds. This is my lowest weight during pregnancy yet and I lost most of the weight in the last few days.
Inches Gained (Waist): No change.  1 inch total gain.
Nonsensical item baby is supposedly the size of: a lime (again), a plum (how is this bigger than a lime?), a pacifier (wtf? this is not that concrete for someone without children)

Pregnancy Symptoms I’m supposed to expect according to

  • Your hormones should calm down a bit — if not now, soon. That means less nausea and fatigue (yay!).–Don’t tease me you saucy minx!  As you may have guessed from above, the nausea is a little out of control.  I can live with vomiting every morning (guess who was 10 minutes late to church), but I’m having trouble eating at all right now and nothing sounds good ever.  Bad morning (morning is a misnomer) sickness is a sign of a healthy baby, so I’m thankfully for that, I’m just feeling like I can’t do this for much longer, but I suppose that’s what labor will feel like too, right?
  • More vaginal discharge, to protect your, um, lady parts from infection.–Puh-lease, this happened weeks ago.
  • A noticeably bigger belly. Do you look pregnant now?–I look fat.  I look quite fat a lot of the time, but I definitely just look fat.  I’ve been ok with that, though, because I was still hiding my pregnancy at work.
  • Headaches and dizziness may start to intensify around this time, which could be caused by hormones, vision changes, drops in blood sugar, dehydration or stress.–I’m on day 2 of a migraine.  Probably from exhaustion and lack of food.  The thing is, none of my normal coping mechanisms (medication and sitting under a scalding hot shower) are allowed, so I just feel really helpless.  This has been a very hard two days where I genuinely doubt my ability to do this.  That’s normal, right?  I’m starting to feel a little better, though.

I’ve also still got the dry skin, runny nose, back pain, pink toothbrush, and round ligament pain.  I think my skin is calming down a little, although, the winter will probably dry every thing back out.

It’s officially been a month since we last got to “see” the baby.  Tomorrow is my 12 week appointment, so I should get to hear the heart beat (they only do an ultrasound if they can’t find it).  I’m still rolling the idea of asking for an anti-emetic around in my head.  There are some small risks associated, but I’m not sure my weight can be allowed to continue to decline.  Even Saltines are making me sick, so this may be a necessary thing.  Either way, I’m just excited to see the doctor again and be reassured that everything is still fine.  Also, I’m going to start telling people at work (although I slipped to a few people this week).  I’m under some pressure to “make an announcement” on Facebook and someone actually asked me to post ultrasound pictures on my Facebook page.  Is this weird?  I always thought so.  I’d especially feel bad because I know one of my Facebook friends is struggling with secondary infertility.

My cravings at this point are “white” carbs, so mostly bagels (and I just managed to devour some Pilsbury biscuits).  My best eating time is between 4-6 PM, so I’m trying to maximize that.  I’ve really moved past sweets for the most part, presumably because I’ve noticed that sugary stuff increases my nausea (although a cookie suddenly sounds kind of awesome).

Anyways, that’s enough of my whining.  No, the magical unicorns have not shown up to cure my misery, but in another 6.5 months I’ll have a baby in my arms and hopefully very little memory of how tough this trimester was.  No really, I need to forget because my husband really wants two kids.

In other news, I made my first baby purchase on Saturday!  I had a coupon for Buy, Buy Baby, so Mandy and I went to buy a tub.  The tub was out-of-stock so we had to ship it, but I got something small to take home that day.

What’s new with you all this week?  I know we have some marathoners in the house!  I’m working desperately on catching up with your blogs, but the migraine has really put a damper on my internet time.